my inner most self in writing (honesty I surprised myself with how deep it is)

Well.......Today I have finally come to admit that I've given my heart to a girl. Her name will remain nameless even though her name is beyond beautiful. There is something in her actions, style, tone in voice, and habits that I find compelingly atractive. I think God might have somewhat sent me an angel. I will look to him for guidence through this period in my life, but I will say that she is wonderful and I won't stop wishing, praying, and hoping for her. I am writing this now because she comsumes my minds, although not in a bad way. Infact I have sucome to the fact that I like to think about her. No, I do not like. I fathom I love thinking of her. she has the fairest hair and eyes I have ever seen in a female. One thing that stands out to be above all is the fact that I can see Christ through her. I can see his thoughtfulness, compassion, and mercy through her. Although she is a mere mass of amazingness in my life, I will keep her behind God which I am called to do. I like to think of her as somewhat of a Godess herself. To get her off my mind is a folly hope. I have tried and strived to accomplish this with no gain in ground. It is hopeless and truly, I love the fact that it is. I have two desires in life, my main desire is to live my life to the fullest for God's glory and my second is to one day have this girl as my own though it may be a little wait before the coming of the later. I could wait for a life time for this fair angel.