mmmm :\

My heart is rather missing someone very badly right now. It seems as if a life time has gone by without me seeing her bright and cheerful eyes. I miss her, very dearly miss her. Today I have four weeks of physics to catch up on which I have about completed 1 1/2 weeks...Its going to be a long rest of the day.I feel lonely. Very lonely. Today for the first time; I realized I am weird. I don't know what people think of me. All I know is I am different then everyone else. It scares me to know this, but I am a freak. I have said this before without believing it, yet now I do believe it because I see examples of it in my life. My heart aches to say things to this girl I talked about, but I can't say them. Sometimes I wonder what she thinks of me. I am so different then any other person. Does she find this attractive? Annoying? Obnoxious? Cute? I hope the latter. Its me. Its how God has put me together and twined me up in my mother's womb...I feel very scared of how people will judge me by myself. I Love you Jesus! My pictures will come soon.... I have three words for you, waffle, box, tree.